Sunday, May 13, 2012

Dear Mom...I Miss You

Dear Mom,

I still remember last year's Mother's Day like it was yesterday...event though we didn't get to spend it together, I remember going shopping for your gifts and mailing it to you. I was at Macy's, in the kitchen section, and saw two things that fit you perfectly...a plastic deviled-egg tray case (your deviled eggs were the best I've EVER had, I'm not sure how I'll ever make them as good as you) and a spray bottle for EVOO (I still remember the 1st time you told me about how much you loved Rachel Ray and how she called Extra Virgin Olive Oil = EVOO). I remember you calling and telling me that you absolutely loved both and couldn't wait to use them...and I remember seeing both of them at the house when I came to visit shortly after that, proudly on display. :)

And now, this day, just a year later, is acutely painful and harder than I would have ever imagined. I want you to know, today of all day's, that you were the best mother a girl could every dream of having! I'm not sure that I ever said it enough or emphasized it enough...but my appreciation, love and respect for you is larger than life itself and grows more and more every single day. I will spend the rest of my life honoring you and all that you did for everyone while you were here with us. Thank you for loving me unconditionally, it was something that came so easily for you - and know that on this day, and every day you are loved and missed.

Love,
Kristin

A beautiful, Amy Cornwell necklace that I ordered for my sister and me, in memory of our mom.

When I got back into blogging and posting regularly, I promised myself that I would be more personal and post from my heart. All of the blogs that I follow, that I truly love, are ones in which the blogger is vulnerable, is honest with his/her readers, and doesn't necessarily always post about all of the positive things that are going on in life. We're all human, we have good days and bad days...and we should be able to talk about the bad days just as much as all the good!

This past winter, my mother passed away. She was 58, too young, and it was fairly sudden. We were very close, she was one of my very best friends. I've been more at peace with it lately, knowing that it must have been her time, that she had fulfilled her purpose here on Earth, that she's in good hands, and that she'll always be with me. But unfortunately, days like these will never be the same again. Not a second goes by that I don't feel her absence in my life, but a good friend of hers who I keep in touch with, told me the other day (as I told him how hard I knew today was going to be) that EVERY day is Mother's Day. And I couldn't agree more...I try to live every day in honor of my Mom, hoping to make her proud and living the life she would want for me. I have good days and bad days...and I'm okay with that. She is my mother, she's no longer here, and that hurts. But whether we like it or not, life doesn't stop for anything and we have to pick up and learn how to keep them in our hearts as we continue through life. So I'm learning and will continue to celebrate every day as Mother's Day for my mom.

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I want to wish all of the mothers out there a Happy Mother's Day. I am not a mom yet, but I know from watching on the sidelines, that it is NOT an easy job. One day a year does not reflect the recognition that mother's should get for all that they do. So I encourage you to treat every day as if it was Mother's Day. 


Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted ~ Matthew 5:4 

14 comments:

  1. What a beautiful tribute to your mother. Praying for you on this very hard day today!

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    1. Thank you Amy, I appreciate it!!

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  2. Wearing my necklace today, sis. Wonderful post.

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    1. Yay, me too! I'm so glad you're wearing yours...and thanks, it was not an easy one to write, that's for sure. Missing her like crazy!!! LOVE YOU

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  3. I actually got on your blog today because I've been thinking about you and your loss today and wanted to see how you are holding up. Your mother was a wonderful lady who was special to so many people including myself......she was my very favorite teacher :) Praying for you and your family today. This was a beautiful post! She would be proud! Love, Ashley

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    1. Aww, thank you so much girl. Today was definitely a rough one...I knew I just had to get through it. I wanted to write something, I knew that, but it was not an easy post to write. I'm so glad you got on and read it...it's nice to hear from people who knew her! I'm hanging in there and just taking it day by day, that's all I know how to do. :)

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  4. Thanks for sharing your heart with us SIL...we love you and miss you!

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    1. Thanks for stopping by to read...love you & miss you too!!

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  5. Kristin, I was so nervous to read this post. My biggest fear outside of losing Jeff is losing a parent. Your courage throughout this trial has been so amazing to witness. I've prayed for you (and Joe M.) often and am so happy that you're doing well.

    With love,
    Ashley

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    1. Hey Ashley, well thank you so much for reading it, and for your prayers. It has been the most difficult thing that I've had to face, and it's only just beginning...but I'm getting through it and just trying to do my best! Keep the prayers coming :)

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  6. There are really no words. Just hugs and love to you.

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  7. I remember your mom. She was a beautiful person!

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    1. Thank you Katie, I appreciate you saying that...she really was!

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